Post Partum Part 2

The last couple days have been better regarding my bout with baby blues. I still have my moments though. The holidays have helped because we've been busy, but when I'm home alone all day it's another story. I don't want to be stuck at home alone with Remington. Even if there's one more person around it's better. When someone is around then I can talk to them and they can take care of Remington for even a couple minutes so I can have a short break, even if it's just to run to the restroom. So, in order to cope I've been going on Wal-mart runs and going over to my parents' house. It has helped, but I still get down. For instance, last night after spending the day at my parents, I cried coming home. I don't know why, just because. It wasn't even because I was going home to be by myself, because Landon was home. It was just because I was now responsible for Remington again.

I feel bad for Landon too, because he's been working so much overtime. Christmas day was the first day he's had off in awhile and he's been working 6am to 6pm (when he leaves home and gets back home). By the time he gets home it's about time to get Remington ready for bed. The only time Landon really gets to spend with his son is when we're putting him to bed, and I've posted before about what a chore that is.

I don't know what it's going to be like starting next week. I have to go back to work and I'm not looking forward to it. I know I'm going to miss Remington.