Showing posts with label labor and delivery. Show all posts
Showing posts with label labor and delivery. Show all posts

I'm losing my mind!


1:00am- Conversation between Landon and me after the alarm goes off to feed Remington:
Me: Landon, could you go get the nipple shield so I can just feed him here?
Landon: Do you want me to bring him to you?
Me: No, I have him.
Landon: ---

I didn't have Remington, I hadn't moved from bed since the alarm. Landon- he's been amazing!- went and brought Remington to me and I feed him in bed for that feeding.

Being a mom is so exhausting. I'm a basket case that cries at everything. Breastfeeding was not going well. I would struggle for an hour to try and get him to latch on and suck. He just wasn't having it so I was supplementing with formula. I couldn't handle it. I would wake up, struggle and cry with him for an hour, then try to go back to bed only to get up in 2 hours to feed him again. Feeding every 3 hours is exhausting!!! I can't wait until he's back up to his birth weight so I can feed him when he's hungry instead of having to wake him up. I bet he would sleep through the night if I let him.

I feel incredibly overwhelmed with everything. Feeding every 3 hours. I'm not getting any sleep. The whole sleep when they sleep doesn't work either. When he's asleep I just think about everything that needs to be done. Clean the house, eat, stuff to do for work, etc. We really need to go to the store and buy food and stuff, and we need to take down the Halloween decorations, we just have no time!

I couldn't take the breastfeeding problems stress, so I called the nurses at Labor and Delivery for help. I totally recommend this to new moms. Ask for help when you need it, it's worth it. I went into the hospital and they watched me try to feed Remington and I told them what the problems were. I'm crying and I just couldn't deal. I was trying so hard and nothing was working. The nurses had me stay and relax in a room and try to feed him. They told me to stop supplementing (nobody told me to do that anyway- I was just feeding him the formula because I thought he wasn't eating enough). Then one amazing nurse gave me a nipple shield to try. I had tried this earlier when I was still in the hospital and it didn't work very well. This nurse showed me exactly how to use it. It worked instantly. I went home with instructions to use the shield, don't supplement anything, and to call and let them know how it went. Let me just say, I'm sooo happy! It's working like a dream. All of the feedings last night went flawlessly and he ate for 30 minutes each time.
When Landon got home from work last night, I let him know that the shield was working, but I still cried on him for awhile because I still feel overwhelmed and emotional. He has been amazing. He said he didn't feel like he's doing anything, but he totally is. The emotional support he's giving me is so needed. I love him so much! (I'm even getting teary writing this.) Landon took Remington for awhile and let me shower and eat. It sucks that he can't take over a feeding, and he'd be more than willing too. In fact, he would even like to be able to give Remington a bottle at night and let me rest.

Everyone is telling me that it gets better, and I hope they're right. Since the breastfeeding thing is going well now, it's already a huge relief.

Remington's Birth Story


As far as birth stories go, I would say that Remington’s is pretty average. It was long and tiring, but nothing crazy happened and he’s happy and healthy. This is really long, though, so bear with me. I think it’s pretty easy to read.
Wednesday night we head to bed thinking that I’d be induced Friday at noon. We both still had to work Thursday. I even had an IEP meeting at 2:30pm to go to. It wasn’t going to be a big deal. I still hadn’t had any contractions.
Then early Thursday morning, 2:30am to be exact, I’m lying in bed when I feel the need to use the restroom. This is no big deal since I’ve been having to get up around 3-5 times a night to use the bathroom. As I get up I feel like I’ve accidentally peed a bit. I think that this sucks that I can’t even hold it anymore. Then as I start walking towards the door of our bedroom, it gets worse as fluid runs down my legs. I’m thinking, oh great, I hope my water didn’t just break. Just the way it happened I had a feeling that’s what it was. I make it to the bathroom and the fluid just rushes out and soaks my pajamas before I make it to the toilet. Now I know my water just broke. I spend some time cleaning up and being annoyed as every so often, I leak a little more. Finally it calms down a bit and I go back to the bedroom. Landon had half woken up through this. He told me later that he wondered what I was doing and just had a feeling that my water had broke. I tell Landon that my water broke and we start getting ready to go to the hospital. We had most of our stuff ready, but not everything was together. We spend almost 30 minutes getting clothes, toiletries, and baby stuff around. Landon mentions that we just lost another two days. We lost 2 days the first time by scheduling an induction before our due date, and now he’s coming earlier than that. We head downstairs and Landon calls the hospital. They ask if it was just a little fluid or a big leak (big of course) and what color the fluid was (clear- which is good, if it’s different colored then it could be a sign of an infection or possibility of one). They also tell me to wear a feminine pad so that they can test the fluid when I get to the hospital (I figured this and was already ready to go). They tell us to come in and we start heading that way.
This whole time it’s dark (it’s only 2:30am) and pouring rain. At least it wasn’t cold out. I’m dressed in pajamas and I rush through the rain to the car. The hospital is only about 5 minutes max from our house. On the way to the hospital and as we’re standing at the ER check in desk I feel 2 very mild contractions. At the time, I didn’t really know what they were, but I just assumed they were contractions. It just felt like cramps. We get checked in and I get a bracelet for just being in the hospital. As we’re being checked in, Landon looks at his ring finger and mentions that he thinks he lost his wedding ring. I’m like uh oh, and then I look down at his other hand. The ring is there, because it’s his left hand. He was holding up his right hand which doesn’t ever have a wedding ring. It was a funny little moment there. We then get ready to walk up to labor and delivery. I notice on our way up, another couple coming in to the ER area too. I just assumed they were they for an ER thing. I found out later that they were in labor and delivery too with their first boy. They called within 5 minutes of when we did. Later, she got an epidural right before me. She then started pushing and gave birth around 12:30 while I was fully dialated.
So we walk up to labor and delivery, and they take us to the delivery room that we saw when we toured the place. I get hooked up to the blood pressure cuff, baby heart monitor, contraction monitor, and they start an IV (mostly for the antibiotics for Group B Strep). The whole time of labor and delivery, Remington’s heart did just fine. There were never any problems there at all. We both just kind of sit in the delivery room then and chill out. I start feeling contractions more, but it’s not too bad. It’s around 4am now. We both have to call in to work, but Landon waits until 6:30am and I wait until just before 8am. Landon called work for me, though. We also waited to call our parents because we knew we’d probably be there for awhile and didn’t want to wake them up too early. Between 6am and 6:30am we call our parents and text our siblings. Landon’s mom takes off work and starts heading to the hospital. Landon’s sister does the same thing. My parents go to work and wait to come to the hospital until we’re further along. I’m only dialated to 2 or so. The contractions start getting really painful now. The contractions felt like someone taking their hand and holding your sides from the back then grabbing you really hard while kind of pushing in your back. The whole time I felt contractions the pain was in my sides, hips, back, and then in my thighs when they got really strong. Landon watches the contraction monitor and tells me how strong each one is. At first when they were around 50 (something- I don’t know the type of measurement it is) it didn’t hurt unbearably bad. But, as I went along, it’d get to 30 and I’d feel like I couldn’t take it anymore. I was definitely ready for an epidural. I think they hurt so much at the end because they were completely going away, there wasn’t as much time in between, and I was getting tired. At 7:30am I get the epidural.
I didn’t know really what to expect from the epidural. I’d heard stories about how the needle hurts really bad, because it’s so big and that it’s just super uncomfortable. When the anesthesiologist comes in, he has me lay on my right side and he preps my back. He puts a clear shield thing on and swabs the insertion area. He tells me that I’ll feel a poke and I prepare myself while laying there during a contraction. The contraction hurts so much it probably took my mind off the epidural some. Anyway, the needle didn’t hurt at all. The IV hurt 5 times as bad. The contraction goes away and I kind of feel the epidural being put into place in my back. He then starts taping the line up my back. He used a ton of tape. He connected it to the pump and showed me the little switch I could hit to get more drugs if the pain increased. He also told me, though, that it would only start the pump every 30 minutes so I couldn’t give myself too much. My legs start to feel tingly and numb. By the time Landon’s mom arrived at 8:00am I’m not feeling any pain at all. It was awesome. So, Landon’s mom is in the delivery room with us (which I didn’t realize she could do- but they let 2 visitors back there at a time and kick them out whenever they do anything) and I’m feeling great. I take a little time to update Facebook and email the special education teacher who was running the IEP I had that day to tell him I wouldn’t be at the meeting. Also at 8am, our doctor comes in and checks me. By this time I’m dialated to 4 and 100% effaced.
Around 9am or 10ish, the epidural starts to wear off on left side and I’m feeling the pain of contractions and just constant pain. I tell the nurse and she helps me turn to lay on my left side. This starts working fairly quickly and I feel better again. At this point I still can’t feel my legs. It was amusing that I couldn’t move my legs at all really. I could feel touch for the most part though. Every time the nurses would come it to check me or do something where I would have to move my hips I needed a ton of help to do so. I just couldn’t move. The whole time my right leg was much more numb than the left. I’m good for a while, then the epidural wore off on my right hip shortly before noon. I had to wait awhile before I was able to push the button again. I was then rolled to my right side to help too. Finally that worked and I was good again. By now the people next door had their baby. The doctor comes back at 12:30pm and I’m dialated to 9. They wait just a little bit (all the nurses were busy with the other people anyway), then they kick Landon’s mom and sister out totally and get me ready to start pushing. When a contraction would come (I couldn’t feel it very well, so the doctor and nurse felt me and watched the monitor) I would take in and blow out two breaths then take in one and push. For each contraction I would push three times and take in another breath after each count of 10. I ended up pushing for almost 3 hours. At first, it wasn’t bad because I couldn’t feel anything. It was annoying though because it was taking forever and nothing was changing. Finally towards the end, I’m more tried of pushing mentally than physically. I worried once that I might have to have a C section if it went on much longer. That was one thing I did NOT want to do. During all the pushing the doctor was infront of me, the nurse was on my right side holding one leg and Landon was on my left side holding my other leg. There were a couple times when I had to hit the epidural button to get the pain down again. The worst part of the pushing was towards the end when I could feel that his head was halfway out, but I’d have to stop pushing because the contraction was over. The labor/pushing took so long because the contractions just weren’t being strong enough or close together, even with a lot of pitocin. Finally when his head was almost out, the doctor decided to use the vacuum too. So, for the last contraction she suctioned and I pushed and Remington Talon was born at 3:41pm on Thursday, October 29th, 2009!
I did not want the doctor to put him on my chest until he was cleaned (that’s gross) so they start cleaning and let Landon cut the cord. They checked him over and made sure he was healthy. Landon took a bunch of pictures. They swaddled him and gave him to me. He was so cute. Neither me nor Landon cried at all. We’re just not emotional. While he was being cleaned and the doctor was stitching up a minor tear that I had, I’m just kinda chilling out and watching Landon take pictures. As the days have gone along though I mostly just think he’s really cute. I got to breastfeed him right away, and he took to it with no problem at all. After a little bit, they wheeled me down to the permanent room and let family visit. I felt great and Remington was awake and alert.
That was an amazing day and birth story. It was tiring, but so worth it. I’ll post more about the rest of the hospital stay later.
I'll also add more pictures later.

Here We Go

In the hospital right now. Remington decided he wanted to come today. Water broke at 2:30am.

The Final Countdown

We had our last weekly doctor appointment today. I haven't been feeling any contractions so I wasn't expecting much. However, I'm dilated to 1.5 and 70% effaced! Wow! The doctor then asks us about inducing again and how we felt about it. I told her that we were wondering if we could possibly induce on Halloween (Saturday). The doctor was understandably hesitant, especially since she has her own kids that she'd want to take trick-or-treating.
Then I mention that maybe we could induce late on Friday (30th) and hope that labor lasts past midnight. She thinks it over a little, and then says she'll go call the labor and delivery dept. at the hospital to explain what's going on and see if it'll work out. When she came back to the room, she said we were good to go and told us what to expect when we get to the hospital. Awesome! I'm supposed to report to admissions at the hospital at noon on Friday and then go up to labor and delivery to start the baby process. This works out great too because I don't have to work at all on Friday and Landon won't have to take off any time (except a half day Friday) unless I'm still in the hospital on Monday. Friday is also my brother's birthday. I don't really want Remington to have to share his birthday, but my brother would love it if Remington was born then.
I'm excited, but kinda nervous too. It's like we lost 2 days now, and now it's a bit more real that we'll have a baby this weekend. I'll make sure to bring the laptop along to the hospital to post something of an update if I can. I don't know how much I'll be able to post though, but I will definitely have pictures up ASAP. So, Remington, we'll see you in 3 days!

By the way: We just sold our last two puppies tonight. A couple our age took the last two puppies together. It was so cute how they were cuddling each other, it was probably hard to split them up. :)

Picture: Our porch for Halloween.